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| hmm 4 months. I guess I don't know what to say about those months yet. i do know is that I'm a better person and even though people might not think so, I'm proud of myself.
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| Hey all, I've been lazy with the updates. I'm pretty sure only beka and Karl read this, and maybe Kate. Maybe Ludia (p.s. we have been missing you lately), Well, i am done with school for the summer. I start student teaching in the end of august. I am so excited! I have a few things planned for the summer. A trip to South Dakota for a wedding (yay cousin). An added bonus my brother and his G/F are coming too. I miss them a lot and plan on holding onto them both for the whole weekend. Next, I'm planning on going to Hazen, ND to visit my girl misty with my other girls and the men folk. Should be a good weekend on the lake. Its the weekend the new Harry Potter movie comes out, so i plan on slipping away to see it. Oh, and the last book comes out this summer too! I can hardly wait! Anyways, then my g/f Stacy gets married on August 4th! And soon after that I will be going to Idaho for a whole week! Ahh, I can hardly wait! So that will be my summer. Every other day I will be working like a work horse in a barn..hahahah! a dressbarn! Exciting times. Oh yeah, and I will be spending lots of time on my bikey bike!
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| we are in a new apartment. It is nice, except there is no electricity. What is the deal people?
Anyways, thats all. I'm cold and I have wet hair
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| Okay, so here's whats new.
Dan and I are considering the option of buying a house here in St. Cloud
I am an assistant manager at dressbarn and have started working 30 hrs a week + school
I got my car towed on monday due to the snow.
I ate at BWW tonight and it was awesome.
I havent cooked for real in over a week and that makes me sad.
I am in love with my friends dog Daisy
I have no idea when the laundry is going to get done.
My life is going to be fairly unpredictable for the next few months which scares me a lot.
I love "Life of Pi"
I made some changes in my life that have helped me to feel much more freedom from my past. | | |
| Lots to think about and not much to say.
Beka and Karl got married and thats pretty freakin awesome! Congrats guys!
School starts in a week and some odd days so I guess I'm kinda looking forward to that. I had today off and it was nice. Dan is on his way home and I am happy about that too.
Its weird what happens to you when you realize who is important in your life. As i've written countless times about the last 6 months, I am realizing that I need to live each day the best I can. I could die any time and I need to think about do I want my last thoughts to be of the people who hurt me or of the people who love me here and now. It gives me hope that I see other people in my life living this way. It makes me think that I can do it to. Maybe I can. Anyways. Its my brother's birthday tomorrow so yay! My trip to IDaho was amazing. The scenery and just feel was very refreshing. Even more meaningful was the time I got to spend with Aaron and Larkin. They are two awesome people and I love them very much. It was hard to leave them and I can't wait to get back to Sandpoint. It was also encouraging that my friends in St. Cloud and my family couldn't wait for me to get back. It gave me a little more of a sense of belonging which I have been searching for ever since september. Its weird to think that its been that long. I have survived and I am working on making a new life, one that is not based on being so involved in other's lives i forget about my own. Its sad for me to say but in 2006 I was not experiencing my own life, but living through my friends experiences. Then those friends became not my friends and I realized what I had done to myself and my relationships that still existed. I am so lucky to have people in my life who accept me for who I am and where I'm at. Thank you to those people who held me up when I was unable to hold my own. Especially Dan. he is pretty much amazing and i love him a lot. He always inspires me that I can be anything I want to be. I have been going through this period of time where I really don't know who I am anymore but I know the kind of person I want to be. I mean I'm still a caring, kind person who values friendship and love. But loosing someone close to me has changed me in good ways and bad ways. I think its made me better because I realize that I have my own life to live, and I don't have to get so involved in the lives of others. This doesn't mean that i wont listen to problems or be involved, but it just means that I won't loose myself in relationships I have now. I think its made me a little less trusting of people which is good and bad. Anyways, this is my blog and I think i've said quite a bit or nothing at all. I think i need to be done now. | | |
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